It's Impossible To Get Used ToI trick myself & tell myself everyday that it doesn't REALLY matter. But it does. It is the only thing I ever think about. No matter what the situation or conversation, I can always find a way to bring it back (in my mind) to how ugly I am.
My friends are only my friends because they look better, when they stand next to me.
It's pathetic. I'm pathetic.
I am at a total and complete loss of what to do. I can't go anywhere, I hate when people see me. I hate that if they happen to see me they're stuck for that nanosecond,with my image in their brain. No one should have to put up with that.
If I had the money I'd just fix myself with surgery but I'm a broke student.
All I can do is cover the mirrors and lock myself in my bedroom.