Ugly Inside and Out
Though no one else close to me or who loves me see's this, only me so far. I do feel like an ugly person inside
and out. I guess that idea was put there mainly because of me and the trips i've done in my life that made me have guilt about who or what i am. I am easy to get along with most of the time, i guess when i get mad or extremely upset is when one Ugly side comes out. I've gotten mad at some people and they've left my life at that moment, never to hear from them again. The other ugly side is i don't wear make-up, or jewelry, or dress up fancy with high heels and hair curled, i am always in ordinary mode, sweat pants and a t-shirt most of the time. My 21yr old is quite the opposite she's even offered to dye my hair, put on make-up and help me dress more now, but i politely refuse and being the way i was made, she just accepts that without arguement. Not that i'm disapointed at times with who i am, but it bothers me that others sit and judge you because you don't mimic them, I say we are who we are, and once a mold is hardened its pretty much gonna stay that way til that individual convinces themselves to be different.
Til then.." If you can't accept me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best "