I Believe I'm Ugly

I have believed that I'm ugly all my life. My childhood was horrible. I got bullied at school and physically and emotionally abused at home. As an adult I'm told I'm beautiful, but when I look in the mirror I don't see beauty. I wish my skin tone was lighter. I also wish I were biracial. I struggle everyday with feeling ugly. It's torture.
crystalblue77 crystalblue77
36-40, F
2 Responses Jan 17, 2013

I feel ugly too. I'm biracial, but I wish my skin tone were darker or lighter. Being in between is no good. Your hair is ******* ugly, and your skin tone is all uneven. It's so much better to be dark or pale. :)

I am sure you aren't ugly. And it takes time to see the beauty that you have on the outside when being teased growing up... But first you have to love yourself from the inside out. Looks fade sweetie but inner beauty stays for a lifetime. I'm not sure why you would want to be bi racial.. All races and mixtures are beautiful. Be proud of you, there has to be something that you feel good about. Also, compliments take time to stick... But you have to see some good about your physical in order to embrace a compliment... Change takes time, its not a over night thing... You can't undo years of feeling bad in a day. But you have to start somewhere there's always a beginning a new chapter...