The first thoughts I think everymorning. I hate going out. The only way I ever go into the mall or any other place is if it's early when they're first opening. I hate to see boys look at me and jerk their heads off. It's as if i'm going to approach them and they don't want any eye contact. I have no TRUE friends. Depressed-all of the time. I know if I lose weight i'll look better, but, it's easier said than done. It's not like I can just lose 40lbs in a month. These are just my thoguhts..lol i'm probably the only one who's this screwed up. I just had to let it out...Thank you for reading it.