When Will It End

You know how anorexia people look in the mirror and think that they are fat? Well I look in the mirror and think I am ugly, I can never be satisfied with my look. People tell me that I'm pretty but I don't feel it. My brother thinks there is something wrong with me, and I agree 100%. With the pain I feel everday that each and every girl I see is so much prettier then I am has brought my self-esteem to the lowest low. It effects my world daily. And if I feel like I look my attitude is shy and I'm terrified to say anything because it will bring attention to me. I haven't always been like this, just the past 6 years or so. I was married and he seemed to lose interest in me, so I left him. I am with my boyfriend who only pays attention to me when our friends are around, which makes me feel absolutley useless. Does anyone have any advice on how to train the brain to see pretty instead of ugly?

itslikeanorexia itslikeanorexia
31-35, F
3 Responses Feb 25, 2009

Thank you Egoberd! I've never heard of such a thing...I looked it up and researching it now.

What you are describing could be a form of body dysmorphic disorder. Check it out and see if you think it fits.

You are a beautiful person. Just always remember that anytime you think something bad..