I Can Never Be Pretty
Every day I wake up for school and I have a hard time getting up because I know that no matter what I do to myself, I'm still ugly. I can wear makeup, wear contacts, cute clothes, but my face will still stay the same. my nose looks weird, my face is too big, my cheekbones are too high. I can't stand it when people look at me because I know they are judging me in a negative way. I don't know how I continue to live like this, I just hope one day I will accept myself for who I am or become another person who is beautiful no matter what they do. I know I will never be pretty. and that frightens me a lot.
I have never had a boyfriend and I haven't had a guy ask me out in over a year. I dont know if I just turned ugly recently or maybe I just lost my confidence recently. Every time I look in the mirror I am upset. sometimes I'll have days where I feel okay about myself but then the next day it's right back to where I was before. I'm so tired of people judging me because Im not pretty and seeing them be nice to others who are popular and pretty. Some days I just want to die, but I can't because I love my mom and my friends so much I can't leave them.
I don't know what to do anymore... Im 17