To Ugly To Fall In Love.
I am really, really ugly. My mother was a beauty queen, but unfortunately I happened to get my father's appearance, and that's one of the reasons why I'm ugly. My older sister looks like my mother so she is beautiful, and sometimes I'm jealous. How could she be so beautiful when I got so ugly, when we have the same parents? I guess it's just bad luck. Quite an irony, isn't it?
My nose is huge and crooked, my teeth are sloping and warped and over all my features are very irregular. My chin points to the right, my nose points to the left, my right cheek is fatter than the other and the left part of my jaw is larger than the right part. I'm not deformed, I'm simply ugly. The irregularity of my face depends partly of a disease I had when I was a child, because it paralyzed the right part of my face. I got medicine in time so it's not paralyzed anymore, but the traces of the illness will forever be written in my feaures, perfectly conspicuous to everyone.
I try my best to look pretty; I stay in shape, I wear make-up and pretty clothing, I take care of my skin and my hair, but still, with my face, it will never be enough. I am 18 years old and I have never had a boyfriend. I'm not sure I will ever have one, because I never like those who likes me, and if I like someone, I'm not brave enough to tell him becuase I'm afraid he will think I'm pathetic because I'm so ugly and dare to love a pretty person like himself. I always feel ashamed of myself and I just wish I could hide my face.
Of all people, why must just I be so ugly? I don't need to be a beauty, if I just looked normal I would feel fine. But I do not look normal, so I do not feel fine, not at all.