I Don't Want To Be Arrogant But ...

I don't want to be arrogant but I think I am an awesome friend but I don't have too many friends right now. When I had friends I WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR THEM and they would be so thankful and "love" me for like 2 days, when their problem went away they didn't contact me as often as they did when they were feeling bad. I am a human being and when it was my turn to be sad none of the people I "helped" was there. I have felt so much anger and so much pain that I always end my friendshios because of that, because people are not there for me when they need me but I am always there and it's not fair. Not everyone values friendhip like me and it hurts.
I don't want someone calling me every ten minutes or coming to my house everyday. I know every individual has his/her own life and their own issues but a text message telling me that everyting will be fine or that they are there for me wouldn't hurt, right? I am very emotional, I love to help and I hate seeing people suffering, that's why I do everything I can to cheer someone up when they are felling down. I am very caring and I wish I wasn't because people in this world don't appreciate that.
I feel pain, I feel like a fish out of water, I feel I don't belong to this world, for me love is the most important thing (frienship love, romantic love etc, you get my point) and I can't understand why some people can "forget" a friend so easily. When they were in pain I was there. How can they not think? how can they be so dettached to other people's suffering? It's so hard, I hate being like this. I wish I were cold, I wish I didn't give a "f**** about anyone. Caring too much about people and being constantly worried for their happiness it's too exhausting but I can't change. I'll always be there when they need me and I hate it
Val86 Val86 26-30, F 4 Responses Mar 28, 2012

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Don't wish that about yourself. Just because they are fair-weather friends, doesn't mean you have to change. You are gonna meet the good, the bad, and the ugly, but never change who you are to spite. If I did, I would be the worst of people. Do not give them the power to make your heart bitter. Keep putting your heart out there, keep being a friend. Youll find a good one, or two. I've noticed in life, if you find one REALLY good friend, you are lucky.

its ok........... im proud of you.............

Thank you. I really wish I can find that kind of people some day

sorry to say that but.....the ones who do that , you can't call them friends cause they are simply not, they just people who knows you for only their benefits.

true friend don't do that they always stuck beside you whenever you need them.

believe me you will have your breaking point one day.

you need to know true friends , and when you do that you will be able to treat them as they treat you.

wish you luck :)