I Think Im Ruining My Mother

I think i cause my mothers stress problems. well i seems. every single time im around her, something goes wrong. but i still to this day cant realise what i am doing wrong. i think about every action, every step. every word i say to her and i still cant think about wht im doing wrong. she screams at me tell me that i cant tell her how i feel. im a 16 year old who just wants to be friends with her mother , or just have a normal mother daughter relationship. but my little sister just always causes trouble. and i always get the blame for it. i do everything for my mother, i mean everything. i study for her, i lost weight for her, i clean for her, i go shopping for her, im like a mother to her. i listen to her. she never listens to me. apparently every single thing i do is wrong. like everything. She calls me a drama queen, when i was crying when my ex boyfriend dumped me. but when my sisters goes "MUM F***ING STOP THE CAR", thats not being a drama queen. i feel useles, i feel sick to my stomach that my mum actually thinks of me as like a horrible person. im a person who speaks my mind,but also thinks before i speak. i feel unloved. in these last 2 months i have been through like a 100 things . my bf dumps me, and cheats on me, my mum goes to hosiptal for a mental break down, and now she blames all her stress on me. she actually laughed while i told her i would stay away from her if that makes her feel better, and only come to her when she asks me to, and she just laughs, like my feelings dont matter. I feel really really sad, like im ruining her life. shes the most important person to me in the world. but she makes me feel like im ruining her life. i cryed 3 times for her in one day because i thought and i still thnink that im ruining her life.

ProblemGirl ProblemGirl
18-21, F
2 Responses Mar 1, 2009

Thank you for that help. But the truth is that she just keeps the blames on me coming. nothing i do is good for her :(

When a person has mental issues, until they get the right meds, they seem irrational about who they blame.<br />
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I did this to my son and it hurt him. Once I got medication everything settled down.<br />
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There is hope and then you will see how much she loves you.<br />
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Hang in there, she needs your support more than you can understand at the moment. It will be worth it.<br />
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hugssssss xx