It Is Sadbut I have to admit that on some level this is true. It is a generalization of course, there are a few people who have not let me down, but for the most part people have been very hard on my soul. At some point you can't blame everyone else, I am hard to get to know and don't show my emotions as often and as enthusiastically as most people, and I tend to be content with who I am and what I have. I don't wish to be anyone else, and I don't wish I had what others do, and I think this tends to make people want me to envy what they have.
I am different in many ways, in my religious, political and social views, I work hard and don't believe that you need to be a ***** to get ahead in life. To be honest I don't really know why this happens so often, I used to think it was because of things I did, but I learned that it really was more about who I was than what I did, I can change what I do, but I can't change who I am.
As a result, I come to each relationship with the expectation that I will be hurt, which is not very healthy I know, but on the other hand I also am an eternal optimist and will give people a chance, they almost always let me down, but I still keep trying 'cause you never know.
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