Dissociative Identity Disorder - Not Sure If Have It, But Have A Great Chance

I don't know, how long I have dissociative identity disorder, but I realized it just now. When I was child it didn't matter, because
1. I thought everyone thinks like me (I have another personality in me)
2. If I told anyone they thought I play.

But it's getting worse. I started to think about it when it was raining, and I didn't have any raincoat, just a t-shirt. A woman started to yell, that she brings me home. I didn't know her, although somehow she was familiar. I asked her if she can take my classmate as well, because she neither had a raincoat. She said okay, and took us home. The next day my classmate asked, who brought us home yesterday. I didn't know, what to say, so I told the truth. I don't know. She was so surprised and scared. She said that woman could kidnap us. Than in the next few days nothing happened. But this week memories came of my childhood, when I met a dark person in my mind, and he told me things, commented events in my life that I didn't remember before. I had dreams when I met another "me", but in a fantasy form, he showed me some source of power. I started to search about this problem. I didn't know what it's called, but I heard about schizophrenia, so I started to follow that clue. Then I found this site, and I'm really scared, what's happening to me. Not sure if it's dissociative identity disorder, but:

1. There are things I don't remember, and then memories come randomly in my mind.
2. I know I did some things, but I don't remember when, why and where.
3. Sometimes I'm watching myself acting somehow different, and I can't control it.
4. Sometimes I meet different personalities in my dreams, and I wake up to them.
5. I hear voices in my head.
6. Sometimes I just sit, look and don't do or think anything.
7. There are people who know me, but I don't know them.
8. Sometimes people look at me really weird, though I didn't do or say anything to them.

I don't know if it's DID, but I don't want to tell my parents, siblings or anyone, except my closest friends. It's so scaring that I don't want to contact anyone who is trained for this, because it's so awkward.
I also looked for tests online, and they all said I have, or I may have DID.
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4 Responses May 14, 2012

I'm not a multiple… but i do have my own issues… bulimia, depression anxiety… i was ashamed at first… but truly… professionals won't judge. You have NOTHING to be ashamed of. ur perfect just how u are. =) Take care

There is a wonderful support group igdid.com
You can go and get support, it sounds similar- I hope you get help

You probably are i have the same issue i cant and dont want to speak with anyone about it. Its scary i just thought it was nothing but then it became uncontrollable. i dont even know who i am aymore.

I am not a professional or an expert on the subject by no means but from all of the material that I have read it sounds like to me more than likely you are multiple. This is just my opinion.