Written on January 19th, 2012
I got married a year ago... not even. My husband decided to try to start his own business in another state. I knew it would put distance between us, and I wasn't happy about it, but supportive. I told him I'll be alright, if he does everything possible to be home as much as possible. By the time we hit our 1 year mark... I will have spent 31 days with my husband. I hate being alone all the time. His business hasn't really been going so well, and he wouldn't go get a job to fill in the gaps, and make money for us to be together. He could have come home for 3 months, while his business had some downtime...no, he took a night job, where he is, instead of coming home for a piddly job, and being with me. He is so narrow minded right now. He doesn't even see our marriage/relationship as something that is just as important. I understand he has to be gone, but trust me, he could have spent at least a few days a month with me. I have a daughter in middle school, and have to stay here right now. I work a part time job, that barely covers our bills, barely, if at all. With no other job options for me, right now. I just feel life if I'm going to be alone all the time, and not have my feelings put into any sort of consideration...why should I try. I do love him, I think, but I'm soo mad at him right now, I can't even say for sure how I feel about him. I might seem petty and selfish in this story. Its hard to project the whole story. But it saddens me to think of having to wait for his dreams and goals to come through, for him to care about me and my dreams and goals. Grrr!