It Looks That Way

I've dated. I've been in long-term serious relationships. I've had casual encounters.I'm not some innocent saint, but I'm not very "experienced" in the ways of romance, either. And at this point... I don't feel that I need to be.

I'm 32 and it's starting to become apparent that I am supposed to be alone (romantically speaking). I have had some good relationships and some bad. I've learned things and come a long way since the tender 18 that I was when I started dating. I have dated both men and women, and though they are vastly different in what they bring to the table emotionally, they both have their similarities as well. I feel like I connect better with men on a mental level, but emotionally I only really feel safe with women. I am more comfortable being naked around a woman than a man. This comes from past s3xual trauma.

I no longer date or attempt realtionships. I make friends and that is all. I have been damaged to the point of being unable to trust or open myself to anyone emotionally or physically. That's just how it was meant to be, I suppose.

That doesn't mean my life is over. There is so much good I'd like to bring to the world if I still can.
SpiritOfTheRabbit SpiritOfTheRabbit
36-40, F
Dec 14, 2012