Too Complex

Hi
Just found this website. Feel in need of talking to somebody, may be just getting an honest opinion. I do have friends, but I do think they're too kind to me..

So, I'm 28, divorced. Very lonely. I do have friends, loving family. Can say I've achieved something in my life in terms of where I live, work, sport, etc. Had to fight through difficult times.
That made me stronger, but I doubt that strong is the place I want to be.

We are still very good friends with my husband, he lives in another country. He has a girlfriend, but I am genuinely glad for him - he is like brother to me now. At the end of the day, we've lived together for 6 years. I left, because I didn't want to change him too much and force him to be somewhere he clearly wouldn't be happy. And I wouldn't be happy if he stayed where he was.

So, since then - lived with 1 guy, had 3 more or less serious relationship. Find myself going out with almost any guy who expresses interest in me. Maybe try to prove myself I'm still worth something, no matter that I'm that old. For most of the guys I'm too strong, too clever or too complicated. And it is harder and harder to play someone different. Because it looks like I am too complicated or too strong for many guys.

I don't know what to do..if I play a role, I will find somebody. But then, I don't what to keep playing the role for the rest of my life. That is why I think it is very likely I will end up on my own for the rest of my life..just keep trying and failing..