Why I Think I Will Die Young

i think i will die young because whenever something goes wrong in my life no matter how small a problem is i always attempt suicide as i think this will take me out of a world that i hate because of all the crap that has happened to me.  My friends and family all believe the smile that is on my face but if they really understood me then they would see the sadness that is hidden behind that fake smile.  In fact i am actually waiting to see if what i am doing will kill me~ i so hope that it does, i haven't told my family what i am doing as they will take me hospital and i cant face somebody saving me again its happened too many times now.

This is why i think i will die young (Y)

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Feb 27, 2009