So Depressed Right Now
I've been on Abilify and Prozac for 3 weeks now, but I'm depressed again. I say again because last week I was up. Flying high, over the moon, etc. At first, three weeks ago, I was so happy to be feeling better after months of depression. I was exercising, happy, motivated, but now I can't wake up. I sleep at least 12 hours a day. I'm not certain exactly how many hours I sleep, but whenever I'm awake, I'm tired. I don't want to exercise. I don't want to be around anyone again. I want to hurt myself, not to the point of suicidal thoughts, but I am a recovering self injurer and I want to cut again. I don't even want to write this. I think everyone who will read it will think I'm being whiny and stupid. That's beyond the fact that I just don't feel like I have the energy to write it. Last week, I could've written anything. I didn't have feelings of euphoria... or maybe I did. I didn't feel invincible. I wasn't eating or sleeping much, but I felt like I could handle it. Am I bipolar? I've never been diagnosed, but I do think I am. I don't have anyone in my immediate family who has it, but I have 2 cousins on my mother's side that have it. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel like I'm going crazy.