I Think I'm Bipolar
So I have finally made the appointment to see the doctor but i'm so worried that its going to be brushed under the carpet.
I am pretty certain that I have some level of bipolar / borderline personality disorder - I have thought this for about 4 years but recently I have had a bad depressive episode of about 5 months long with what I call a 'default suicide' setting in my brain, interspersed with times of dancing around, talking a lot, laughing loudly and my mind racing racing racing so I can't catch up. Then yesterday - bang - slept right through and felt fine and today I feel fine too, so I was able to make the appointment.
I guess I just want some advice on how to approach this with the doctor (hopefully I will still have some clarity of mind by the time the appointment comes around). I have printed off some pages of symptoms and highlighted all that apply to me ( everything except change in eating patterns) so I was going to take that with me and just ask for a bipolar test.
My nan suffered with manic depression all her life and spent some considerable time in a psychiatric hospital dancing around and had the electric therapy (not sure of the term?) - I don't know if that would be an indicative factor as I read bipolar can be hereditary.
When I feel like I do today its weird because I feel how I imagine ''normal'' people to feel and I can't imagine that a doctor would take me seriously because you just wouldn't be able to tell that I have spent months staring at a wall, crying and wanting to die, just wanting to turn off my brain.
I am exhausted.
Anyway, i just wondered how others had approached this in terms of seeing their doctor. Any advice would be very welcome. I hope you are all feeling ok today xx
I am pretty certain that I have some level of bipolar / borderline personality disorder - I have thought this for about 4 years but recently I have had a bad depressive episode of about 5 months long with what I call a 'default suicide' setting in my brain, interspersed with times of dancing around, talking a lot, laughing loudly and my mind racing racing racing so I can't catch up. Then yesterday - bang - slept right through and felt fine and today I feel fine too, so I was able to make the appointment.
I guess I just want some advice on how to approach this with the doctor (hopefully I will still have some clarity of mind by the time the appointment comes around). I have printed off some pages of symptoms and highlighted all that apply to me ( everything except change in eating patterns) so I was going to take that with me and just ask for a bipolar test.
My nan suffered with manic depression all her life and spent some considerable time in a psychiatric hospital dancing around and had the electric therapy (not sure of the term?) - I don't know if that would be an indicative factor as I read bipolar can be hereditary.
When I feel like I do today its weird because I feel how I imagine ''normal'' people to feel and I can't imagine that a doctor would take me seriously because you just wouldn't be able to tell that I have spent months staring at a wall, crying and wanting to die, just wanting to turn off my brain.
I am exhausted.
Anyway, i just wondered how others had approached this in terms of seeing their doctor. Any advice would be very welcome. I hope you are all feeling ok today xx
By:
sitchin
Age:
36-40
