I Really Think I Am

This morning I was so depressed over something that happened yesterday. Depression runs in my family but it's more than that. It's hard to explain but I'll try. I sometimes have thoughts that I can't stop. It's so bad sometimes I can't sleep. I cry for absolutely no reason. If someone asks  me why are you crying I have no idea. Since I got up at 3 this morning I thought i would lay down. My hubbie cuddled with me then I started crying. He told me you are crazy (not in a bad way)(I call myself crazy sometimes) When he told me that though I had this thought of me in a crazy house and my real life was just my imagination. I just started crying more and more. Now though I'm in a pretty good mood. I'm not like this always and it just creeps up on me. I take things too personally. It's just sometimes things set me off. I don't know though when it will happen. I think I should be on medication but it's exxpensive. I don't want to see a shrink either. I have before and it did nothing for me. I looked bipolar up and it sounds like me. I can be down one part of the day then it passes and i'm in a great mood.

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1 Response Mar 15, 2009

Can I have the weed that you are smoking? Mine ran out