And It's Freaking Me Out!!

It's been a week and a day since my mother was shot, and my father was put in jail. I'm still here in the hospital with her praying to God to help heal her for she has gotten worse since the wound from the shot got some sort infection on Thursday. That was the day I started hearing voices in my head. And they don't talk all at once. It's like one voice says something and then another backs it up saying that whatever the first one said is right then the third one starts and does the same thing. I've counted and so far I've got 8 voices in my head talking to me. It didn't start out as them talking they were just laughing at me. The memory of what happend last Sunday just kept playing over and over in my my head. Kind of like a movie where you watching a scene and rewind it to see it again and again. I kept telling them to stop but everytime I did they'd laugh even louder. It wasn't until Friday when I started hearing a voice in my head telling me to do evil things. Saturday was when the other 7 voices started talking and yesterday was when they started to put those evil things they're telling me to do into thoughts in my head. I can vividly see what's going to happen if I do what they tell me to do.

I haven't actually done any of what they've told me to do yet because I can still think that's wrong to do those things. But I don't know how long it will be until that is out of my control. I talked to the hospital here and told them my problem and I asked them whether I can see there psychiatrist for free for now because I have no money at the moment. They're debating on whether or not they should let me. But I'd wish they'd hurry up because I don't think I can take much more of this.