I have recently started seeing the counselor at my school and she has told me I am depressed. I have probably been dressed for the past thirteen years. I'm nineteen. I spend a fair amount of time thinking about my own death. I'm not planning on killing myself, I just am so interested in dying. It doesn't help that I don't like myself...I mean I don't hate myself I just never really enjoyed myself. and honestly I' scared. I am scared that my dislike will turn into hate and my interest in death will turn into suicidal thoughts. They might already be. I am sitting in the library with my friends typing about how I hate myself. What has happened to me? What am I and what have I been?
AllieB1 AllieB1
Mar 5, 2012