I Think I'm Falling For My Friend
As you probably know by now if you've been keeping up with my stories, ive been dating my best or 2nd best female friend for the past couple months or so. it's kind of been an up and down relationship, with us not knowing what the hell to want and expect out of each other, and us both being so busy and having so much to deal with.
It seems like even when we break up, it's like we've still got a bond, stronger than either of us would like to admit.
Saturday we broke up, and/or decided to take a break until I get things together in my life. I took it the wrong way due to being ditched when the going gets rough in the past, but she told me that she's not gonna turn her back on me, and that her feelings wont go away.
Every time we get to that point, my heart sinks, because I dont wanna lose her. We've known each other for two years, and I dont wanna risk ruining our friendship, which is ironically what she said. My car is broken, and im saving up for a new one, so she's been doing alot of the driving and effort to see each other, much to my dismay. and I come from a strict household, where staying overnight with a girl is taboo (even though i pretty much did it a week ago).
She got frustrated at these facts and we decided to just break it off. I was pissed at first, but calmed down and realized that she was right about alot of what she said, because I've been making small efforts towards changing things about myself, and hearing it from others only accentuates my need to progress.
I thought she was still pissed at me, but a couple hours ago she called me, and we talked like we always do. I guess though she's willing to call me out on my bulls***, she still cares for me deep down, i can only hope. It felt good to hear her say the words "I really like you, and that's never gonna change, my feelings aren't going away and I never want you to think that."
I hope she meant it.
Because I finally admitted it to myself: I think im falling for her. She's my ideal girl. she's beautiful, smart, shares alot in common with me, independent, good in bed, and decent taste in music to boot. I find myself thinking about her alot, and wanting to talk to or hang with her. I usually hate opening up this much because I end up hurt, but I guess If I do, I'll just have to fight through the pain, because I dont ever want her completely out of my life.
What a complicated web we weave, my friend....
It seems like even when we break up, it's like we've still got a bond, stronger than either of us would like to admit.
Saturday we broke up, and/or decided to take a break until I get things together in my life. I took it the wrong way due to being ditched when the going gets rough in the past, but she told me that she's not gonna turn her back on me, and that her feelings wont go away.
Every time we get to that point, my heart sinks, because I dont wanna lose her. We've known each other for two years, and I dont wanna risk ruining our friendship, which is ironically what she said. My car is broken, and im saving up for a new one, so she's been doing alot of the driving and effort to see each other, much to my dismay. and I come from a strict household, where staying overnight with a girl is taboo (even though i pretty much did it a week ago).
She got frustrated at these facts and we decided to just break it off. I was pissed at first, but calmed down and realized that she was right about alot of what she said, because I've been making small efforts towards changing things about myself, and hearing it from others only accentuates my need to progress.
I thought she was still pissed at me, but a couple hours ago she called me, and we talked like we always do. I guess though she's willing to call me out on my bulls***, she still cares for me deep down, i can only hope. It felt good to hear her say the words "I really like you, and that's never gonna change, my feelings aren't going away and I never want you to think that."
I hope she meant it.
Because I finally admitted it to myself: I think im falling for her. She's my ideal girl. she's beautiful, smart, shares alot in common with me, independent, good in bed, and decent taste in music to boot. I find myself thinking about her alot, and wanting to talk to or hang with her. I usually hate opening up this much because I end up hurt, but I guess If I do, I'll just have to fight through the pain, because I dont ever want her completely out of my life.
What a complicated web we weave, my friend....
By:
Krylancelo
Age:
22-25
,
Male
