I'm In Love With My Boyfriend's Best Friend
Hello. I'm Brooke.(21) For the sake of my story I'm going to change names.
Jake (27) is my ex-boyfriend. We were together a little over 2 years. We have a BEAUTIFUL little girl named Caymen Rae. When I was pregnant, my friends kinda ditched me & I had no choice but to hang out with my boyfriend, Jake. & his best friend. Mark. (28) Jake & I have always had problems and arguements & I never really understood why he was with me if he "hated" me so much. He'd run off to the bar rooms & casinos because #1 he knew I couldn't get in & #2 he knew I wouldn't go to any of those places pregnant. So without saying, we've always had fights.
One night after, Jake returned home with Mark; both obviously drunk.. Jake went straight to the bedroom & took a shower. Which I didn't think much of at the time. Afterwards we got into a fight about how he never wanted to spend time with me. After the fight, Jake goes & passes out & I'm left alone in the living room with Mark. Mark then tells me, if he had a girl like me, he'd never treat her so badly.
I didn't think much of it. Mark was always a picky guy when it came to girls. He had a specific type & I didn't match any of it. He always went for older women with blonde hair & I was a 19 yr old girl, pregnant by his best friend & a brunette. so ANYWAY.. Mark had recently started hanging out with us more and more. Taking the two of us to dinner & we'd go to Saints games. We'd all drive around. This continued after the baby was born. We even named Mark the Godfather of our daughter. He was so great with her.
Time goes by & Mark & I start to realize we have a lot in common. Music. Sports. Humor. & I start to realize, Jake & I have nothing in common. I didn't even know what was keeping the two of us together anymore. February 2009 (1 week after our daughters first birthday). I receive a picture & fool proof stories of how many times my boyfriend, Jake, had cheated on me & with who. Including a ********* with two sixteen year old girls. I was disgusted. I immediately turned to Mark. Who'd I'd grown closer with over the past year. It'd seemed like lately, Mark was more my friend than Jake's. & something sparked. We spent that night together. He made me feel so much better about everything. I'd never felt so much passion than in that one single night. The way Mark kissed me & held me. I truly felt loved. Mark confessed his love for me that night. He told me the sweetest things I'd ever heard in my life. I felt the same way. I loved him. & not only that. I was in love with him.
After months of hiding it from my ex Jake, Mark & I decided that it was time to come out. I started bringing him around my friends, who loved him. I stopped parking my car around the block from his house & started parking in the driveway. Jake obviously found out VERY soon after that & blew up. I have no excuse. Nothing I can say to Jake to make it better. He seemed sorry after I found out what he did but I couldn't be with a guy who could cheat on me so many times with young girls & even some of my friends. So I stayed with Mark.
A few more months & Mark and I are still together. My friends love him. I love him. I'm so in love with him. ONly, Jake has gotten my family on his side. My family looks down on me. I'm a *****. I'm a *****. How could I do that to Jake!?
WAIT! ISN'T JAKE THE ONE WHO CHEATED ON ME!? SHOULDN'T THEY BE HAPPY FOR ME FOR FINDING LOVE??
heart dropping, weak in the knees everytime he looks at me love.
no. they're not. they judge me and won't talk to me.
Mark & I are still together & there is still AN extreme amount of passion & I'm just happy when I'm with him. He tells me he loves me. That he's never felt this way about a girl before. That he wants to spend his life with me. I feel the same..
But what do I do about my family?! Wait for them to come around? I have a VERY close family, which is disappointing because I figured they'd want me happy. But apparently, not. They think its wrong.
so which do I choose.
Love or Family?