A Letter to My Father

Dead dad,

                  I apologize for not visiting you today, but I'd end up crying as I always do when I go to see you....because sorrow is the only emotion that overcomes me this day, for this day represents something that's forever denied to me. I cannot do anything about it. Whatever I try to do against it it's like using an umbrella to protect from an oncoming tidal wave.

What I can do is say I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for being so stupid. I'm sorry for being a sad pathetic loser. I'm sorry for not making you proud. And most of all, I'm sorry for not being capable of giving you a grandson or granddaughter for you to watch over and bless from up there, in Heaven, where you are. I know two things, though. One, that it's God's punishment to me forbeing a stupid sad pathetic loser.

And Two...the only thing that keeps me going all these years since you've been gone. That one day, I'll deserve it like you did, and then I'll ascend, as quickly as inhumanly possible...and we'll meet again, and stay together for all eternity. I'll see you again, Dad. That's my promise.

Happy Father's day.




numisiro numisiro
36-40, M
2 Responses Mar 19, 2009

5hadow...I'm at a loss for words. Thanks, man.

Dear Son,<br />
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Thank you for keeping me in your heart, it means more to me that you know. Its proof positive that you are NOT a looser, nor are you pathetic. Stupid? I hardly think so. If I ever said any of those things to you when you were growing up, I do regret it. It was my way of toughening you up.<br />
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Allow me to pass these few words on to you, they may help you in later years. Strong men DO cry sometime. Men fight, wise men knows when to walk away. G-d is not punishing you, you are being prepared for things yet to come (sorry, I'm not permitted to tell you what, but I can tell you its wonderful, you just have to be patient).<br />
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Don't spend your time waiting for us to be together, it will happen in time, please don't rush it (like I said, you've much to do). Go out and live life. <br />
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Oh, one last thing... I AM proud of you!<br />
<br />
dad (he asked this to be written for him)