Yeah, But Its Not Think, Its Know...

I wish I was pretty enough for my friends, for my boyfriend, for my family. I wish I was the skinny girl I use to be, I hate the jokes from my parents, and my brother and his girlfriend. I hate being called ugly, and fat daily. I am practically starving myself to get skinny again, I hate that I have health problems, and that it makes it so impossible to lose weight.  I'm sorry I;m not pretty enough for anyone, even if I lost all the weight I wanted to, I'd still be ugly, and thats one thing that would never change...

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2 Responses Oct 25, 2010

I'm sorry to hear you say that ); I wouldn't go so far as to say something trivializing like "I know exactly how you feel", but I do experience that urgent, almost desperate need to be beautiful, too. My problem is not really obesity but persistent acne.
I hate that people are mean enough to say such things to you. They have no right, and you should not take that from anyone!
But I suppose, sometimes it's easier said than done. I agree with the other responder. Others may say such things, but you are the only one you can depend on. Don't think about beating yourself up or anything, because who, then, will you rely on to be on your side?
Only inner beauty will win you love, in the end. Take care.

Don't let them steal from you your right to be happy. Don't let them infect you with their own self-hatred. Hide your soul from this...keep a piece of yourself. <br />
I was the same way. I allowed my family's obsession with beauty to demoralize me, they called me names made fun of me and it was all because they were jealous. Jealous of my happiness, jealous that I was not affected by the self-hatred they were. I was happy and they wanted me to be unhappy like they were. No matter how hard you work you will never make them happy because they have no idea what that perfection is. <br />
Since then I have taken my life back and refused to allow them to make me lose out on my chance to live life and be happy. <br />
Love my dear is not won with beauty...ask all the Hollywood starlets if that is the case.