My Everyday StruggleFirst of all, to the readers, i'm not fluent in english so please be patient with me.
I had these feelings everyday that I've always kept in my mind because I'm too ashamed to share it. Well, no one cares about it cause i always try to hide my true self that i am really a weak person.
I'm 21 but almost 22 and male. Everyday of my life, since i was in high school, i felt so much depression because of my physical appearance. This is not some self-esteem issue, i'm ugly, literally, and i can't accept it. I can really say how ugly i look. My nose is flat, i have a lot of pimples, i'm thin and have a very shy personality. All the main qualities of a person to be ugly. People never called me ugly directly, but i feel that these people around me made me feel that way. I feel this negativity inside me to the point i want to die. I've miss a lot of things in my life. I don't wanna be around too many people, because i think they will judge me. I've tried to isolate myself to everyone even with my freinds. Because of that, people see me as different and don't like to be around me. I'm really sensitive when someone is commenting about my physical features. I'm really really mad inside but i can't speak my mind. I'm really afraid and tend to be quiet. I keep it inside, think about it everyday and end up crying myself.
I know you've read stories like this a thousand times, but i just wanna share this to you, someone who can understand me cause i think this is only way i can do to survive my depression.
Thank you for reading. I do hope for your respond. Have a nice day.