I Think I'm Ugly
As a child i was such a cute kid.... then i turned ten and i gained weight...my teeth went wrong and i was clearly very average if not to say ugly, until at 16 i lost it all trough anorexia... although now im fine, i wore braces too so my teeth are fixed and i am in good shape, i still find myself very ugly these days, even though anyone would tell me that i am not. My skin is an unbelievable and constant frustration because i have redness and mild acnee , my right eye is uglier than the left one because the eyelid is not as well defined, especially when i am tired, even though everyone tells me its like that for many people... i hate the shape of my head, and when my hair are wet i look hideous.... i cant stand looking at myself under big neons... and cant look people in the eyes when i talk to them under white and clear lights. i feel like im so ugly that i cant even socialise without fearing what they would think... i constantly hide and throw away my friends because of my low self esteem.... i had genioplasty and all, but i still cant love myself....and im frustrated by the situation..i feel so unwanted...and i thought it would get better with time...yet im now 20 and nothing has changed
