I Have Been The Other Man....

Just before my 40th birthday, I started an affair with a 23 year old married woman.  It was a thrilling run for 6 years.  But just as it started, she wanted to get rid of me, for another man.  I felt guilty, about this affair, but, I was hooked on making love to her.  It was very addicting.  All I wanted was her body.  We laughed, and had a wonderful time.  I had made a promise to myself, after my first wive started cheating on me, that I would never do that to another man.  But, I broke that promise,  I had the affair, that lead to her divorce, And then, she and I got married.  I still think about those times that we were together.  After we split up, I just shut down.  In 1994, I left her.  I have not been intimate with anyone since.  Although, I want very much, to be in love again: it seems that I doubt that I could ever find anyone, to start my heart again.