Just before my 40th birthday, I started an affair with a 23 year old married woman. It was a thrilling run for 6 years. But just as it started, she wanted to get rid of me, for another man. I felt guilty, about this affair, but, I was hooked on making love to her. It was very addicting. All I wanted was her body. We laughed, and had a wonderful time. I had made a promise to myself, after my first wive started cheating on me, that I would never do that to another man. But, I broke that promise, I had the affair, that lead to her divorce, And then, she and I got married. I still think about those times that we were together. After we split up, I just shut down. In 1994, I left her. I have not been intimate with anyone since. Although, I want very much, to be in love again: it seems that I doubt that I could ever find anyone, to start my heart again.