I Disgust Myself

Often I want attention.
This disturbs me deeply.
That is most likely normal human behavior.
But it is still sickening.
I will not let people pity or sympathize with me, because of how I used to love the attention.
I am sure I still would, but I don't give others the chance.
I can take control in this situation.
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Dec 14, 2012