This Conflict That I Don't Even Want To Win.

i'm biting my lip in regret. I'm feeling this way.
I never wanted to bruise your face.
I never wanted to hurt you.
I never cared about winning
I just didn't want you to assault my honor the way you do..
I just wanted to defend myself from the allegations made against me. It's all here. it's all on the computer and everything
I never carred about making you the villian: I just didn't want to be the villian myself. I think you're holding out this idea that there's a hero here and there isn't. This was not my failure alone. 

But you know what? Don't write. Don't call me. Don't find me. Just let go. If that's how it has to be.

I ****** up. I admited it. I continue to admit it but I'm not interested anymore until you own your end of this.... I won't play this part. I won't be the bad guy for you. Cause neither of us is a hero or a white knight so just stop. You're so convinced that this is one sided but you've instigated it just as readily as I have by replying the way you do when I try to deescalate or apologize to you

I've given you ALL I have to give and I've been broken like glass. You don't see that there's nothing left that's sacred that will recede from me from anything you can do... I am and have left the one you refer to by mispellings name alone. I've left YOU alone for 2 weeks but  when i wrote you i thought that you just might forgive me. you could have replied HERE.

if you insist on playing the victim i insist you leave me alone.. This is the final line I'm drawing cause anything further I'm not responding to. 

ManifestoOfThePhoenix ManifestoOfThePhoenix
31-35, M
Nov 25, 2012