Me and Her

 We were both 15 when we met. She had this long brown hair and sparkling blue eyes. This huge smile, amazing laugh.

I fell. Looking back, harder than I thought I did. We were both in love. We would talk and talk and just have so much fun together. We needed each other.

It was 2 and a half years to the day when it ended. In the middle of the summer we always swore would be the best one of our lives. We had fought before, but this time was worse from her perspective. I figured we would get over it like usual. She didn`t.

I lost the girl I love. It`s been a couple weeks. I love her. I miss her. I want to be with her more than anything. It hurt a lot more than I expected and it still hurts. I feel like I have a hole in my heart that won`t fill, no matter what I do to take my mind off it. 

Everyone says it`ll go away. At some point I know it will. It most certainly feels as though it won`t. Every second aches with the pain of a hundred years.

I hope she misses me. I hope it`s as unbearable for her as it is for me. 

drerox drerox
18-21, M
5 Responses Sep 3, 2009

If you really are in love with her, you wouldn't want her to feel the pain that you are going through. I've found that when you are in love with someone you will do anything to make that person happy, even if it means you have to suffer.

i imagine you'll be over it very soon. i thought your story was ironic because you spoke so highly and kindly of her but at the end you sounded vindictive.

i hope it does go away ......... i know that feelin it is the worst ever

Sorry, reality flash! It's been 30 years for me and it never goes away. I you love her you love her. It lessens but never goes away.

The hole will never go away but it will ease. If you truely love her then give her some time and then contact her again. It will get better. Good luck