Ups and Downs
If your wanted me to describe my life with two words, I would say "eventful" and "traumatized" even though I am this young. It's like a roller coaster-up and down. Only this roller coaster has more downs than ups. Every time I feel down, I worry whether I would feel up again. There were times when I hit rock bottom and almost died. I’m really afraid that I would go through it again.
I always wish that I would have a simple and easy life like my siblings and friends. And then I might have more moments of happiness. However, I have a feeling that my wish would never come true and that my life would only become tougher, considering my mental issues. It seems like my fate. I often wonder what the point of all of this suffering is. Do I have a purpose in this life? Should I keep going on like this? If so, for how long?