Ups and Downs

If your wanted me to describe my life with two words, I would say "eventful" and "traumatized" even though I am this young. It's like a roller coaster-up and down. Only this roller coaster has more downs than ups. Every time I feel down, I worry whether I would feel up again. There were times when I hit rock bottom and almost died. I’m really afraid that I would go through it again.

I always wish that I would have a simple and easy life like my siblings and friends. And then I might have more moments of happiness. However, I have a feeling that my wish would never come true and that my life would only become tougher, considering my mental issues. It seems like my fate. I often wonder what the point of all of this suffering is. Do I have a purpose in this life? Should I keep going on like this? If so, for how long?


SomewhereTomorrow SomewhereTomorrow
18-21, F
4 Responses Sep 23, 2009

One thing that I have learned in life from my own experience is that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.

Sarah dear Sarah! Don't think because you are young these things just happen to you. Everyone has their ups and downs in life. All through their life. I call them "Mountains" and "Valleys!" Mountains the highs and valleys the lows. neither are good to be a part of. You need to find the happy medium. These are also called Manic and Depressive! In time you will find a way to deal with these hi's and lo's! We all have them. I believe it is due to our fast paced life we live. Slow things down a little and find your comfort level. Believe me "Life is good!" Bill

its ok to have ups and downs. Its these situations that fashions us into compassionate and loving people, your down moments would be an avenue for a lifting. consider the high high jumpers, they don't just stand in front of the pole and leap... they go way back and make a run for it. think of your don moments as a lifting.

I feel that way too. Feels like I'm on a down right now, but I'm just looking forward to the next ride up. I'm constantly setting goals so that I have something to focus on, work toward and look forward to. No matter how bad things are, there's always something you can do for yourself that will make you feel better, you just have to figure out what that is, be strong, visualize how you're going to feel when you do it, then just go out there and do it. It's not the easiest thing but it works for me, I hope it does for you too. :)