I Do Get Afraid

There are times I want to get on to a roller coaster, scream my way thru till the end.  There are times I kept my silence and don't even realised the ride has ended...

Today I felt like screaming...  and I don't want his sympathy. I don't want him to feel that each time I share my unhappines..I am asking for sympathy.   I still remember the day when I asked him how he felt...he wrote saying 'maybe I am playing the sympathy card'.  It hurts me cos in my life I have never asked any sympathy from anyone.

My achievement in career, in being a single mum, in all these ups and downs in life are all my own efford.

I dont' need sympathy..never will.  I just need him to listen...If only he understand....  ='(


16 Nov, 2009.   I doubt I would like to be on this roller coaster ride anymore.  It is very tiring and disappointing the same time.  How many times can I tell myself 'I can handle it?' when in fact each time I felt happiness...he will take it all away in less than 24 hours...

Eternal Eternal
31-35, F
3 Responses Nov 14, 2009

I should .. x

You do have the guts.....you just have to dig a little deeper.

I want to let him know ...but I just don't have the guts.