I feel alone a lot of the time, like I've been forgotten by people who have claimed to care about me. I don't blame them... well, not rationally anyway. We have busy lives. It happens. But after awhile, I always get the feeling that if I never make the effort to remind them I exist, they don't make the effort to remember me.
What's crap is that I get bitter. And then I say "well, if you're not going to make the effort, then I'm not going to make the effort". Then no-one's making the effort and all I feel is crap and lonely. It is a painful, ongoing cycle just because I can't swallow my own pride.
I still can't help but think if they really cared then I wouldn't feel so isolated.