Ready To Leave This Loveless "marriage"........We have been married 4 years.
We met when I was in a crisis with my family and he took me in, in my time of need.
He was actually also in a crisis with a failed relationship.
The warning signs were there but I felt I desperately needed someone to care for me.
We married a year later and now I am afraid I am trapped in a loveless marriage.
I work hard, on nightshifts, have a small child and he acts as if I am at a nightclub all night. I think he is jealous, he looks thru my purse everyday like he will find something incriminating. I have never gave him a reason to think I would cheat. I have NO Friends!
He complains about almost everything I do, like saying that I don't clean (which is untrue) and have refused to get a job in over a year.
I am also a artist and am driven and was when we met, he seems to hate my drive to succeed. He says "it's always about you, isn't it!".
The truth is , he is addicted to playing video games and has no motivation to do anything else.
He is not affectionate towards me, does not give gifts and makes no attempts to be romantic.
He has a sexual dysfunction and will not get medical attention.
When he gets mad he calls me ugly names like B---- and refers to me like I am a loose woman.
He uses his physical size to bully me around, shoving and pushing.
I constantly try to plead that I am unhappy and he acts as if he does not care how I feel.
If it were not for my belief in a higher power I would be very lost. I hate I had such a beautiful child stuck in the middle of this.
I think he believes I won't leave him because of how helpless I was when we met , but I really want to.
I am stronger than he thinks.
SisC 36-40, F 3 Responses 0 Jan 1, 2012