About to Break
I need a break, is that to much to ask? I really think my kids and maybe there dad <just a little> are going to cause me to loose my mind. I just want to get out, ALONE. Not he is watching the kids while I run to wally world to get a few things we need. I mean finding something I enjoy doing, <that does not include any of my number of addictions> and leaving to have a great day and being home when ever I get there. Is there anything wrong with that?
Well there is... First off I dont have any hobbies, very few friends, and I just dont seem to know how to function in the world. Oh and the big thing no time, no money, and no where to safely leave the kids for that amount of time.
He leaves for work everyday sometimes doing overnights. I know he is working, but he still gets away and has adult conversation. He also gets together with his buddies <not often> and rides 4 wheelers and all that fun stuff.
I am so stuck in a rut and becoming more depressed by the minute. At this point I would be happy to have another mind like adult to just listen to me rant or cry I am pretty close to the crying part. Any way I am just rambling on. Is there anyone out there that can make a suggestion. HELP I'M drowning.