I Think My Mom Hates Me
There's nothing a child wants more than to make their parent proud, right?
That's all I've ever wanted, is for my mom to be proud, to love me with her whole heart, and to support me no matter what I do.
We had the closest relationship a mother and daughter could possibly have. I supported her through her journey through alcoholism, especially when my dad passed away.
I never left her side. Not once. She had broken my trust, said things that have wounded me, betrayed me.. Still, I never turned my back on my mother.
She is sober now. Today, actually, is the six month mark of her sobriety. Now it the time that I need her support the most. I'm in my final stretch of high school (junior, now), and I'm ready to launch into my adult life.
Ever since she's been in this relationship with her new boyfriend, she's gradually been putting him higher and higher above my sister and myself. It's as though he is her higher power, and he is all that matters to her.
I need her. But it's a battle in the house; my sister and I vs. her and her boyfriend. I will call him "Manchild" since mentally, he doesn't seem to have found his adult self.
She carries this anger within her, and it's gotten worse the past couple months. Today, when I got home from school, she rambled off an entire list of things about me that disappoint her. Ouch. I thought I was doing alright, better than I've been in a long time.
I called her out on her anger. She said she's fed up. I told her that even if she never had anything in the world to be angry at me for, that she would find something. She always does.
She just kind of shook her head at me and rolled her eyes. I asked her when the last time she was happy, and she had no response. I told her to find something to be happy about.
Because clearly, there isn't anything I can do to make her proud. Nothing I can do that will make her happy.
That's all I've ever wanted, is for my mom to be proud, to love me with her whole heart, and to support me no matter what I do.
We had the closest relationship a mother and daughter could possibly have. I supported her through her journey through alcoholism, especially when my dad passed away.
I never left her side. Not once. She had broken my trust, said things that have wounded me, betrayed me.. Still, I never turned my back on my mother.
She is sober now. Today, actually, is the six month mark of her sobriety. Now it the time that I need her support the most. I'm in my final stretch of high school (junior, now), and I'm ready to launch into my adult life.
Ever since she's been in this relationship with her new boyfriend, she's gradually been putting him higher and higher above my sister and myself. It's as though he is her higher power, and he is all that matters to her.
I need her. But it's a battle in the house; my sister and I vs. her and her boyfriend. I will call him "Manchild" since mentally, he doesn't seem to have found his adult self.
She carries this anger within her, and it's gotten worse the past couple months. Today, when I got home from school, she rambled off an entire list of things about me that disappoint her. Ouch. I thought I was doing alright, better than I've been in a long time.
I called her out on her anger. She said she's fed up. I told her that even if she never had anything in the world to be angry at me for, that she would find something. She always does.
She just kind of shook her head at me and rolled her eyes. I asked her when the last time she was happy, and she had no response. I told her to find something to be happy about.
Because clearly, there isn't anything I can do to make her proud. Nothing I can do that will make her happy.
By:
Sarah196
Age:
16-17
,
Female
