Found A Secret Email Account Of My Wife's
I found a secret email account of my wife's expressing her lust for our son's soccer coach named John. I suspected she had a crush on this guy, she lied and said she didn't. I just confronted her with this email. Here are some excerpts from the email... "I've been seeing John pretty regularly. Even going by his house and he comes and gets in my car and we just ride around. Nothing physical but long lingering looks that make you think they're going to end in a kiss, but then they don't.... But things at home are getting better and Ed is trying really really hard. John and I got in a huge fight this weekend (soccer related) and we're not speaking right now. So who knows....." and more... "definitely 2 very volatile tempers. i think if we were together we'd kill each other. probably have great sex before that though!" There were more emails talking about learning to flirt again and her lust for this guy. I have to stop and let you know that my wife has always been a person that did the right thing. She has always been a motivation for me to do things right. This is the first time since I've known her that she has done anything untrustworthy. I think this is why it hurts me so much. After confronting my wife, she has downplayed the who situation. She claims that nothing has happened between her and john. She is he team manager of the soccer team, so she is always on the phone with him. I really don't like this. She won't even admit that she has lust for the guy. Only that she is sorry she made me sad. She keeps telling me she doesn't know what to say. She can always talk to her friends about almost anything, but struggles to talk to me. I am only asking for honesty. I want my marriage to work and be better than ever. I have feelings of guilt that I let this happen because I wasn't there for her enough. But if she can't even admit there is an issue, how do I resolve this and move on. I could forgive her if she went and had a one time sex affair. I am just in constant fear that she has something for this guy that she won't tell me. She says she loves only me and that she wants a better marriage. I do too. But the words from the emails seem to haunt me. I have been working very hard to help my wife as much as possible and to create a better marriage and family life. It is my top priority in life. I show my wife as much love and attention as possible. Sometimes I worry that I try too hard. I just love hugging and kissing her and saying how much her and our family means to me. I do get horny for her a lot too. My sex drive is greater than hers. But I try not to pressure her. As a guy you sometimes have a HARD time controlling certain parts of your anatomy. So I get a lot of erections when I am close to her. My only solution to not be so horny for her is ************, which makes me feel guilty. But I don't want my wife to think I just want sex from her. So it is the lesser of two evils. So I am trying to move forward and make my marriage happy and fulfilling. But there is a constant worry that she can't get this other guy out of her mine. I try not to show this fear as we work toward happiness. It really helps to hear other women's perspective and to make friends with people who have children and deal with issues in their marriage. I am sure there is a book with some expert, but it means more to here from people who are experiencing the same issues. Thanks for taking the time to read.