Alone And Lonely

I have never had any friends in school or growing up. I was always very shy and quiet and just a loner. All through out high school I never really spoke a word to anyone. People knew me as the "quiet girl". I went away to college and tried to make friends and told myself that I was going to give it all I had to make a "life" for myself and live to the fullest. I wanted to make friends and just have fun. That was far from what happened. People at school perceived me as being stuck up and having an attitude. I would hear rumors that people wanted to fight me. I tried to explain that I didn't have an attitude and I had no idea what these people were talking aboutl. Well word got out about me and no one wanted to be my friend or talk to me. So i just went to class and back to my dorm room everyday. I was very miserable and never felt so alone in my life. Now I'm 23 years old and trying to date and make friends and I'm still having no luck. People tell me I'm pretty all the time but, I can't even make friends let along get a boyfriend.  I seriously can't take it anymore. I really can't understand what is it about me that people hate so much? What could I possibly be saying or doing to make them never want to talk to me again? Sometimes I feel like giving up on life because I'm so tired of being alone. I tried everyones advice and even read self help books and nothing has worked for me. I just want to know if its someone out there that has never had a boyfriend or girlfriend and just been alone all the time in their life. Basically I just want to know if theres anyone out there that can relate to me???
tiffy1 tiffy1
2 Responses Jul 11, 2010

so, did anything change since you wrote your story one year ago?

Yes, i'm loner, i've always been the quiet girl, i have some friends but i'm not very closed to them and don't see them much, i'm pretty much all the time alone