The More You Try...

The more that I try NOT to think of him, the more I seem to think about him.  Of course the idea pops into my head "Is he thinking of me?"  But then I start to think of why am I thinking of him.  I trace my thought pattern back to see what triggered that memory of him.  In a way, I think it's part of a healing process.  It is allowing me to see things that I didn't see before.  Suddenly, signs of what was to come seem glaringly obvious.  It's making me much more aware of things and maybe now I won't be blindsided.  So you see, it may not be a bad thing to be thinking of him.  As long as I can learn from it, right?
reachin4goals reachin4goals
31-35, F
Aug 4, 2007