Nobody Is ListeningUntil recently, I believed in a higher power, an all knowing supernatural being. But I cannot ignore the fact that not one single prayer of mine has ever been answered.
I used to pray to God for guidance, for help with financial issues, for just one friend to come into my life. 3 years ago, when things were going really bad, I reaffirmed my faith in God and became a born again Christian. I went through the whole ceremony and I opened myself up to Him. I did everything I was supposed to do. Know what happened? Nothing! I lost my job, my marriage fell apart, I went into financial ruin, and I don't have a single friend. Is this how God treats his flock? The mental image that comes to mind is God leading the wolves to the sheep!!!! I hear people saying their prayers are answered all the time, so why are none of mine? Was I, as one preacher put it, cursed at birth and therefore an abomination before God?
Please.... gimme a frickin break! Prayers may seem to work for some, but after 30 some years of believing in God, and never, ever having any response to mine, I think they are a waste of time. Here's the irony of it all... before I became "born again" I had always believed in a higher power. After becoming a Christian, I slowly lost my faith and now I don't believe there is even a God up there. If there is, He sure has a sick sense of humor.