Having To 'defend' Myself...i have experienced feeling badly a lot of the time my entire life. i am technically diagnosed with major depressive disorder,but i feel that people think i'm not dealing with this because sometimes i'm sociable,i try to be cheerful as much as possible,and i'm a good actress, i don't want everyone to bear the brunt of how i feel a lot of the time,and i need to give myself a break sometime...i wouldn't have survived this long without my sense of humor. but i am constantly paranoid that someone from social security is going to read the funny banter i post on facebook with friends and family...under private,yes,but there was a case of a woman in canada allegedly posting on facebook who lost disability benefits because she went to the beach with friends and posted about it! if you are depressed,and able on a given day to go to the beach and feel better for awhile,it does not mean you don't suffer a lot from depression. that's all i'm going to write for now. i'm glad i found experience project,because i need to talk to somebody,and i don't like to bother my family all the time...they have a lot of their own problems and i feel guilty i can't help them and i hardly visit my dad who has alzheimer's because he and i used to be good buddies and i miss who he was and it's very depressing! thank you for being here!
deeaqua 51-55, F 4 Responses 1 Oct 14, 2010