Fear Of Loving -- S. Hall ZillaI'm afraid to love again, I ask you to understand,
The only one I ever loved Left my heart a barren land.
I 'm afraid fulfillment would elude me,
In a lifetime... does itever come twice?
Anything less would surely undo me,
I choose not to pay that price.
I'm afraid to again feel the pain,
That consumed me in the end.
I couldn't bear it this time, As my unsuspecting heart did then.
I'm afraid to give my all---
‘Tho you promise the same in return, Love may again flee
, Like the "genie" from a magical urn.
And to give less than my all, would be unfair to you
. You deserve so much more,
A love dedicated and true. I want to love again,
In the way I'm capable of, I will not
settle for less, I yearn for abiding love.
At this moment I have nothing to hope
for, Nothing else to give... I've been robbed of one of life's treasures,
It's main reason to live. I am so vulnerable at this time,
I fear what my actions will be, I will not make a decision Until my heart is free.
I love you as a friend, And I want
to do what's right, Let me heal a while longer....
I'll hasten, with all my might.
I need to be worthy of what you offer, So there's no loss...
only gain. I never want
to cause anyone, This kind of endless pain. Please...
be patient with me.