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One Of Those Days..

Its another day where I have sat down and had a good think on life..and honestly I dont understand it.. People come and go out of your life and theres that few handful that will stick by you forever.. I have had a long think about alot of things.. I mean everyone wants the same thing in life friendship, to love and be loved, to have your own space a home and to be happy ..yet these things I dont understand.. If everyone wants these things then why is it so hard to grasp them??.. Life for me??.. Is a blur.. Its filled with a whril wind of emotions and sometimes I go through thoughts and feeling that I cant control and it is annoying sometimes.. The one thing I desire is a peacful mind.. Unfortunately I know I will never have that.. Lying in bed at night wondering where am I going to go in life..where is it going to end??.. Life is filled with ups and downs.. And its you that can make your life how you want it?? .. Well thats what ive been told.. But the way I see it??.. Theres always something standing in your way preventing what you want.. For example.. I was watching the xfactor the other night and I was thinking all these people have such good voices and they want to become professional soooo bad yet that can be taken away from them just as fast as it came to them.. The people who auditioned at the start??.. The ones who obviously cant sing??.. They put their heart and soul into their performance and yet their "just not good enough".. That is a thing that can knock someones confidence a thing that will have them feel like they shouldnt try anymore.. if life is how you want it to be?? Then why?? These people who dont have a strong voice like the rest??.. Will never get what they want??..to be able to sing professionally??.. If life is how you make it??.. Then whay about children who are born into poverty?? The want sooo bad to get out of that but yet when they grow older they find themselves in the same possition as their parents??.. And when they where trying to change their life the one thing stopping them was money and education??.. Its like they can only get soo far and then that barrier comes down.. And they give up.. I see people everyday getting on with their lives but you jusy never know what they are thinking or whats happening to them??.. They might look happy and yet theres one thing eating them up inside..and that one thing is what I see as the "thing" stopping you from how you want your life to be.. Theres people I know and their life is soo sad and upsetting yet they always push through.. Like this one guy thomas.. He has a severe mental health problem and the man is disabled.. But he always bumps into me up the street with a smile and gives me a hug and he talks away to me like theres no tomorrow.. But he gets bullied real bad by kids and he gets soo hurt by it.. Why does there have to be vicious and evil people in this world??.. People that cant be happy unless they are making other lives miserable??.. Theres people in this world who constantly degrades others and makes them feel worthless??.. Theres girls I see who cant go through a day without bitching about other girls and men I see who cant stop trying to make them out to be the big man.. "the fighter" "the one you shouldnt mess with".. This **** is just ****** up!! People who think they are cool and tough yet they go around picking on the weak.. But the weak are the ones who are strong.. Its the weak who go out and face life eventhough they know that their either going to get name called,beat up, or degraded infront of others.. People bully others for many reasons!! if their smart??.they get bullied..if their different?? .. They get bullied.. over weight??.. Bullied!! Ehy does this have to happen in life??.. Its so ******* sad.. And people dont care how other people feel.. Theses evil and vicious people only care about me,my and I.. They dont care if they hurt someone.. They dont care if they make peoples lives a living hell.. And its these vicious people who.are yet another barrier to others for them to make their life how they want it... It breaks my heart to know that theirs people suffering in silence.. People who font wana get out of bed in the morning because they know their life is going to ne the same rutine.. The same vicious cycle that will never break.. This **** is why people commit suicide, why people become depressed,why people get aloy of mental health conditions.. And yano what thinking about all this makes me take a step back and say.. What the actual **** is life all about??.. And why does bad things happen to good people??.. I guess I will never understand life..but one thing I do understand.. You are not alone..
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Most people don't think so deeply. People in today's world need to have more compassion and affection.

I can really relate to this!

Love it ... And understand where you're coming from ...

I agree with you to a certain extend, life has its ups and downs, sure there are things preventing you from what you want, but most people when they don't get what they want start complaining and fall into self-pity and self-doubt (not all of them) thus they make their own lives miserable.

I know as no other how it is to be bullied, I know as no other how it is to be handicapped, but I don't let that ruin my life. Sure I can't go to a college for game designing, fine, I teach it myself and develop simpler games. Point is, nobody can get the exact life they want, that's where a lot of people give up, they instead should strive for a life as close as possible as they want. That's how you shape your own life. Not looking at clay you don't have but instead use the clay you have to sculpt the life as close as you can to what you want.

What is life about? It's about caring and compassion. It's about not complaining but doing something to make a difference. Too many people complain about how bad things are and how there are so many homeless. I wish these same people would do something to make a difference --- whether it's volunteering at a homeless shelter, donating money or food to the Food Bank or simply doing what you did and stop and talk to someone who's homeless and living on the street. My point is we are all CONNECTED and I don't mean with smartphones and iPads, I mean as human beings. Why do people commit suicide? Because they feel isolated: they have no one to turn to, no one to talk to and no one who will try to understand the pain and loneliness they are feeling. We should all make a better effort to keep in touch with friends and family. If I don't hear from someone I'll call them, email them or write them even if I was the last one to communicate. Also, I pray for people. I'm not getting on a religious soapbox, but I do believe in the power of prayer. When friends are troubled we need to be there for them, to offer them hope, support, love and prayers and this way we can make a difference. Thanks for the post.

You are a very wise young lady who walks around with her eyes opened; who doesn't live in denial as so many do......You have great empathy and compassion....You are a gem.
Great Story !

You're thinking is very valid, but in ready everything you wrote, you are not alone. We all have these same thoughts like you, and some even more so. Whether you are young or older, we have all been in your shoes. There is no easy answer to any of them, but what I have finally learned in my 47 years, is this. We cannot change the world, the way people think or act upon another, and we certainly will never understand the wrongs in this place either. But, what we can do, is try to find everything positive in our own lives, so that maybe it will make us stronger and wiser to the evils out there. We have to find that protection that is needed for us, each individually, and when we find this, we find inner peace. We can accept those who are hateful and/or hurtful, and feel sorry for them because they must be lacking something in their lives they don't make visible to others, like bullys for instance, or the girls who talk about other girls, because they want to hurt them, There is something in that person that they are jealous of, because they lack a good family life, or friends, true friends, or something that want, and can't have, so we need to feel sorry for them and take away their power, by ignoring them and telling them we feel sorry for them. It's like a fire cannot continue without fuel, so don't give them fuel. As for people who suffer poverty, its a sad thing, but everyone has the choice to change the pattern, and anyone that can help in the smallest way, should, or close your eyes and pretend it doesn't exist. You have a true heart and a good soul. Look inside and find that strength that makes you who you are, and then the good things will come your way, even if you try to help one of these concerns that bothers you so dearly. You will find you will fill your heart and your head with good thoughts and feelings, instead of sadness and confusion to the worlds demons. Best of everything to you! ox

This is some real deep thinking that I can connect with and I'm sure i've thought the majority of this at different points of my life.

Here's the thing: I had several 7th grade classmates that were mean to me that didn't even graduate from HS and I'm now a University graduate so I consequently believe it catches up to them in due time.

A perfect post...and a perfect 30/30 Rate-ups to Viewers ratio ta boot too! =3

Welcomes =P ...also to add a teency-weency-bit, reading bullied words can be just as if not more traumatic than being bullied in person, since if it's posted online the words, images, comment or however it was sent across, can possibly be permanent :

I don't think anyone could have written this any better. Life is unfortunate and it is sooo sucky to see stuff like this happen but the one thing I think you forgoten to mention (just kidding, I'm pulling your leg missy) is that when the weak, the underdogs, the bullied ones, when they get up and they strive to live each day and don't allow vicious people to bully them it's those who make this world the beautiful place we live in. Though there is a bunch of a bad, okay a lot of bad...the bad that turns out for the best is what gives hope to those who are thinking the same thing you and I and many others out in this world, that it can be stopped. It has, and one day it will but your absolutely right. If more people thought like you and saw life in the same perspective as you, life would be a better place my dear. Chin up!

Yeah no joke, people are disguisting human beings sometimes. I'm sorry people were even doing that but yeah **** happens and its sooo freaking sad to see or to hear about you know. but the best part about it is they do it because their lacking in all the fields your sister is triumphing in, in life!!! <<33 If she is anything like you,, then she exceeds in a lot of things! =) but look at you, all sisterly like. Thats awesome!!! i love seeing people stick up for their family like that. but aww ur welcome and yeah I'm doing okay. Just hanging in there best that I can.

Yeah I know. People should just excell with other people that way they didn't have to make other people miserable. But the easier way out is to just bully and make life hell to others who don't deserve it. One day we'll figure something out and wipe out all the bullying. Deal? LOL but hahaha and your head isn't already expanded?!!??! LOL I'M KIDDING ;))) lol but Thank you for that. I honestly needed to hear that. Been tough (fathers gone far away for vacation) so I've had a hard time dealing with it so thank you sooo much. I absolutely will do that, and HEY NEVER APOLOGIZE. I too wish I was there for a lot of things but we can make up for that now. =))))))))) You know I'm always here for you. REMEBER THAT.

lol oh hush, you are good with words you just don't think soo! SILLY!!!! but yes we shall destroy them all!!!!! (evil laugh jk jk) but haha a few inches left. You sure I didn't just fill in those 2 inches ;) jk but you aint lying. I told my dad he better bring me back something super nice since I'm doing better than any of us expected (oddly enough) haha but yes starting over. Nice to meet you Jade, been a pleasure getting to know you. Irish ehhh. AWESOME! lol Well I'm Christine. I'm 23 years old. OMFG I'm old. wow and I'm just dumb at times lol jk jk were goobers u know. but I know we all can see your lovely statuses on EP love, I am so happy you found someone who makes you happy. From what I heard from you and others she seems to be one hell of a chick. I'm just glad you two have met one another. Now it's time to meet and write a story for all of us to cry over! hahaha but omg you will be 19, times going by fast huh.

LMFAO! Thats pretty hilarious. blows dust off HAHAHAHAAH you had me laughing so hard lol but see told you. Your head was already expanded and you didn't even know it ;) and haha way to make me feel better about my age. Only a quarter century old. NOT BAD ;) lol and I bet she is. I heard pretty amazing things about her and the same goes for you too so to answer filipino and irish *PURRR-FECT MATCH!!!! lol Well I am really glad you found her and vise versa <3 but hahaha okay well write the story of meeting just not hte other parts ;))) LOL crazy butt.

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