Miss My New Hubby

My new husband just died of bowel cancer after a long 2 year battle... We got married and a month later he passed away... I wake up everymorning sick and with the worst gut ache... I miss him so much my body is aching for him.. His family havent been easy and have actually been awful to me... I miss him so bad i want to vomit all the time :( i miss having him there at night cuddling me, even wen he was sick he always put me first... Its been a week and one day... I guess itl b easier but atm im in hell.....
Meaowmeaow Meaowmeaow
22-25, F
3 Responses Dec 5, 2012

Lady, there's nothing anyone can say or do to take away your pain. But they can help you cope and process. Don't try to "be strong." If you need to cry, then cry. If you need to scream, then scream. If you need to beat the crap out of your pillows/mattress, then do it.

The only way to get through grieving is to grieve. If you suppress or ignore the pain, it will eat you alive. Working through the grief is the only way to heal.

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I am sorry to hear of your loss but if it is possible, could you go out and buy a book called 'the shack' you will get it from amazon. I believe you will find peace in this book. The pain gets less as time goes on but if you could remember this, the pain you are feeling is a new form of love. Because you don't feel your physical husband, you mourn for him, but that mourning is you expressing love. Love that he feels and appreciates and who watches your every move. Life has changed not ended. Buy flowers, go for walks, embrace life as he would want you to, but most importantly, don't be hard on yourself. If you can't be bothered, or are tired, or angry, that's ok! You must allow your body to express what it's feeling and never let anyone tell you different. I hope you enjoy the book as much as I did and may God's love console us all.

Sorry for your loss :( just be strong