Sweet Sweet Night

*sigh* I love thinking upon this night. It gives me goosebumps. It was in many ways my coming out, my new beginning. The start of who I am now. But don't let me hype it up too much. Here goes:

It was late in the nighttime and I've decided to stay up until midnight, if not later. Just because...the whole thing was like fate. I didn't have a reason to stay up but I stayed up anyway. I find myself talking to my friend D. and the flow of conversation is at its best. So natural. And then, around 1230, he asks me if I would like to go for a walk.


At first I thought he was joking. I mean, you don't just go for walks at 1230 at night! But he wasn't joking, and so he says that if I'm up for it, he'll be over there in about 45 minutes. I just say, "If you show up at my house, I will go for a walk with you. xD" And so I wait:

"It’s 1243, and all I can think is, what’s going on. Is this for real? D. is supposedly walking to my house right now, and when he gets here I’ll have to go for a walk with him. That’s awkwardly phrased, but such is the gist of it. It’s going to take him forever to get here, but at the same time, if he really is coming, his arrival is imminent. eeek.

I don’t know how I feel about going for a walk, and I am so afraid that my parents will wake up and find me missing. I’ve thought about leaving a note. haha I’ve also thought of insisting on just sitting in front of my house for awhile.

This is INSANE. I really hope he isn’t screwing with me, cause I got all dressed. I have trust issues, I think. And syntax issues also. haha

I’m sorry, I don’t know what to say right now. I’m just waiting, maybe for nothing, and it’s all surreal. I’m going to sneak out of the house. Even if it’s just for a walk, it’s still sneaking out. I could get SHOT. Or my parents could find out.

Or D. is screwing me over.

Either one.

****, I bet he’s screwing me over. I’m going to be so ******* pissed at him if he is. I would sit outside in my backyard, but my cell phone isn’t charged and so I’m typing at the kitchen island thing.

I got the phone number correct. ****, this is insane. I have no idea what I’m doing. I could get in so much trouble for this. Maybe I should just call the whole thing off.

If there is a thing to call off.

****, this is awful.

I wish he would call.

But maybe he won’t call.

Cuz he’s screwing me over.

This is just some elaborate fantasy that I have created. And ****, it’s not real, it’s not going to happen. I’ll stay awake, but it will be like staying awake for a glimmer of hope that something is real in this. And now I’m scared. Eek this is weird.

I hope he understands this is weird.

I bet he’s screwing me over.

I do have bars and he hasn’t called. Maybe he got caught.

Or maybe he’s screwing me over.

I wonder what E. would think of all this. I wonder if, whatever the outcome, I will tell her about this. Probably not. Gosh, I wish something would happen. This is so weird."

Finally, he calls and we go for a walk. Oo, it was so nice...We walked to a local park and ended up sitting down on a cement bench. We just talked, about nothing and everything, it felt so natural! It was the night of a lifetime, so special in its little way. It was dangerous and sneaky and thrilling and warm at the same time. I recommend night walks with special people. They are unforgettable...

hnah1313 hnah1313
1 Response Feb 16, 2009

I find that the Sun and Moon each stimulate a different side of the brain. It's weird. :P<br />
<br />
The Moon heightens the emotional side, while the Sun stimulates creativity and thought. So yeah, a walk in the night with someone special would feel quite magical. :3<br />
<br />
You know, when I created this group, I kind of wasn't expecting over 200 people to follow suit and join. XD Way to go!