I Don't Know If I Was Lying To Myself At All
But I'm happy. I got a 325 which is uber category 4, seeing as category 5 starts at 330, if I am not mistaken. Regardless, I am not sure if I cheated because I am not even sure if I would do any kind of surgery to become a woman. I have the desire to have a baby and my long past of repressing my feelings holding me back from knowing for sure, but I think I really might like the idea of being a woman. I will need to talk to others and therapists more, and probably in person only (sorry helpful EPers!).