The BathtubDuring my first years in college. I was so devastated. I don't have people that I can caption as friends but instead acquaintances. My grades were low and I felt ugly inside and out. I often have dreams that if I die the only people that will cry our my parents and relatives. I realized my death is that so easy to be forgotten and people will just move on.
I decided to bring my stereo inside our bathroom, tune up the music and fill the bathtub with water. I looked at myself in the mirror and had second thoughts of doing it. I went inside the tub and slowly submerging my body until my neck is in the water. I glanced at the plain walls and bid goodbye to the word. As I close my eyes and slowly submerging myself. I stop my body for holding my breath and try to take in the water and drown myself easily so the pain will easily fade. I suddenly heard a frantic voice of my mother and rose up out of the bathtub, coughing out the water. She asked me why was I taking so long to take a bath and didn't even replied to her early shouts. She accused me of sleeping and I just justified her suspicion. She sermon me on how stupid and foolish I was to sleep in the tub I could have drown. In my thoughts, if only mother you knew what was my purpose at that time.
I thank God, my mother was the instrument that save my life. I may not have someone like a friend to be with but the love of my family are the ones that can fill up the hole in my heart. People who want to commit suicide. Someone is there for you, just look carefully and your heart will find it
Dumstey 18-21, F 11 Responses 2 Aug 19, 2010