Giving In-There was the time I slit my wrists.
-The time I tried to drown myself.
-The time I tried to suffocate myself.
-Now I'm just starving myself.
I can feel it now more than ever. It's stronger than ever. I was so strong once; I could go hungry for days-sometimes weeks at a time but now my hands are always stiff, numb and blue and my feet are always numb and my legs hurt...my hair is turning white but I can't stop and I don't want to. I enjoy facing the mirror in just my night clothes and shoving a handful of laxatives down my throat.....I guess I just enjoy putting myself through pain and seeing myself bleed but for some reason each suicide attempt I endure fails and leaves me even further from where I began.