Im Still HereMy life has been one mess after another I was the problem child always the blame for everything.... my whole life ive shoved everything down just let it create this rage inside of me made my walls go up never letting anyone in. Last Thanksgiving was one of the worst days of my life.....umm this is a little hard to say my mother on holidays or when ever wed go to her parents house my mother and my grandmother would put a shock coller rounded my next and they would shock me when ever they felt I needed it. When i would try to take it off they would shock me till I'd pass out. Last thanksgiving was no different I fought then every step of the way and they couldn't get it on so they threw me out of the house when it was freezing with no coat and shoes to sit there why they all ate. I walked home and called my dad to see if he would help me Idk i just needed someone to talk to...before I could say anything he yelled at me for calling and hung up so I just wanted to die nothing mattered anymore. I took 22 pills (10 mussle relaxer 2risprodones 10 vics) I took them with some alcohol and i don't remember anything but trying to get up and falling waking up in my bed about a day later.
I should have died but something kept me here and for the next few months I felt really bad about it. I just needed to Finaly get it out and talk tell someone.
notokay2 18-21, F 5 Responses 2 Jun 18, 2012