At Age 16
sixteen is very young but kind of normal. mix of hormones and stuff. I'm bipolar and have been through a hand full. As well i self harm and still do to this day. one night i lost it all. drank half a bottle of polish vodka and around 35 pills (antidepressants and sleeping pills). how i lived, no one will ever know. i woke up the next morning not knowing if i was actually alive or not. it was definitely a very scary feeling. the entire week i went through school and work just waiting for someone to say, "you're not really alive". i couldn't believe it. i still can't to this day. many more attempts followed after.